Kayleigh had a good night at a friends house and I've found my feet and shed my anxiety in approaching other parents down the school. Can't say I'm doing amazingly but it's a step forward and a massive improvement. Things are starting to go my way and I'm making the most of it getting on top of things. I still need to patch things up with Abi & Lewis but that will take time.
The only thing remaining is this journal of mine. Had to have a long think yesterday when it dawned on me all this history and madness out here. I had to ask myself what is this space for and what do I want with it. Well it's a space where I shed my anger, hopes and fears and sound them out so I can take a better approach. Its my sounding board and my space to let loose without fear. While I have a policy of no secrets and honesty it doesn't have to be so giving. So if someone wants to read all they have to do is ask and I add them in. So I'm in the process of making this less public and all future posts are pretty much going to be a friends only kind of thing.